Sunday, November 21, 2010

The end in sight? Nope. Not yet.

I hit 50,000 words for NaNoWriMo!

But I still have about 20,000 words to write.

When I started NaNoWriMo, my goal was to finish a novel. After two failed novels because I didn't plan properly, I thought, "Crap, this is never going to work. I can't finish a novel. How can I be a novelist if my novels don't end?"

The tail end of my novel is here, and I have an outline. I have exactly how I want my novel to end. That's the difference between this novel and the two previous ones. Things keep changing from my outline, but it's all still going in the same general direction.

Now that I'm nearing the end, I can see the holes in the story, I can see that the pacing is off. Fortunately, the spine of my story is strong enough to insert pieces and delete pieces as necessary, but it still doesn't make me feel any better knowing that my goal was to speed through a novel.

I'll tell myself again that the reason I did NaNoWriMo like a mad fool was to prove to myself I can actually end a novel. If I remember this, if I finish my novel, I can pretend it's a victory until it wears off, and I have to go back and gut it.

My goal was to finish a novel.
My goal was to finish a novel.

I'll keep telling myself this until after I finish my novel when a new and more difficult goal is ahead of me.

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